Chrissy Teigen has opened up on the loss of her baby and explained why she needed to share photos of the hardest moment of her life.
Teigen, 34, was praised for sharing heart-rending photographs from the hospital, including one showing her and Legend saying goodbye to their little boy, who was delivered at 20 weeks.
In a candid new blog post, Teigen addressed critics who questioned why she took photographs of such a painful and personal event.
She wrote: “I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was.
“I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask.
“That he just had to do it. He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time.”
Teigen, who is also mother to four-year-old daughter Luna and two-year-old son Miles, added: “But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles.
“And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story.”
Directly addressing critics of the pictures, she wrote: “I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done.
“I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like.
“These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”
Teigen had suffered heavy bleeding during her pregnancy and had been put on bed rest by doctors.
She said she spent a “couple nights” at the hospital when doctors told her it was time to say goodbye to Jack.
Recalling the moments following his delivery, Teigen wrote: “I asked the nurses to show me his hands and feet and I kissed them over and over and over again. I have no idea when I stopped. It could have been 10 minutes or an hour.
���I dunno how long he had been waiting to be delivered for. That will probably always haunt me. Just writing it makes my nose and eyes tingle with tears.
“All I know now is his ashes are in a small box, waiting to be put into the soil of a tree in our new home, the one we got with his room in mind.”
Teigen, who tied the knot with multi-award-winning singer Legend in 2013, thanked fans for their outpouring of support, saying the “moments of kindness have been nothing short of beautiful”.
She also asked others to share their stories of similar experiences and called for people to “be kind to those pouring their hearts out”.
Teigen wrote: “I went to a store where the checkout lady quietly added flowers to my cart. Sometimes people will approach me with a note.
“The worst part is knowing there are so many women that won’t get these quiet moments of joy from strangers.
“I beg you to please share your stories and to please be kind to those pouring their hearts out.
“Be kind in general, as some won’t pour them out at all.”
Finishing the blog post, Teigen explained why she shared it with fans: “I wrote this because I knew for me I needed to say something before I could move on from this and return back to life, so I truly thank you for allowing me to do so.
“Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see.
“Thank you so much to every single person who has had us in their thoughts or gone as far as to send us your love and stories.
“We are so incredibly lucky.”